Tuesday, April 20, 2010
If you've poked around the new Second Guess website at all, you might have noticed a tendency to encourage humility & meekness in some of the language I've chosen. That isn't, of course, an accident. I'm a big believer in (and practitioner-in-training of) meekness.
Being meek isn't exactly my natural, default state. Really, is it anyone's? Merriam-Webster defines meek as "enduring injury with patience and without resentment." I wasn't being very meek in the privacy of my car when I got cut off this morning. (I did say I was a practitioner-in-training).
It's not very American to be meek. Toby Keith, for instance, is a fearless opponent of meekness, as demonstrated in his anthem "Courtesy of the Red, White, and Blue:"
We'll put a boot in your a**
It's the American way
I've never been to a Toby Keith concert, but I imagine him singing this line to thousands of excited fans whose cheers get a little bit louder at these words.
There is a whole lot of discussion to be had about standing up for yourself, what basic "inalienable rights" are, and what happens when we need to fight for them. We'll be having that discussion ongoing - but I will always push back with this question:
How might an infusion of meekness make this situation better?
For instance, you might have come across the news story yesterday of the Christian Legal Society at the UC Hastings School of Law in San Francisco, which is suing the University for formal recognition of its status as a student group with school funding & benefits. The sticking point is the group's statement of faith, which members are required to sign and which excludes practicing LGBT people (and a whole host of other folks) from joining the group. The University called this discrimination and refused to grant the CLS official student group status.
The whole thing actually began back in 2004. Six years and multiple appeals later, the fight over rights and freedoms and discrimination carries on. The main issues we focus on are, naturally, whether student groups should be able to receive public money when they exclude certain groups of people; whether excluding people on the basis of belief is true discrimination; and whether first amendment rights are at stake if people are forced to associate with others in their student group who don't share their beliefs.
There are a lot of great things to talk about in there. The unfortunate thing, at least as I see it, is that we're not just talking about these things - we're suing, fighting, and perpetuating a culture war in all of it. We've gone a long way down the road and dropped any semblance of meekness by the wayside at the very beginning.
So I ask... how might an infusion of meekness make this situation better?
I can imagine a few ways. What about you?
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
If someone I didn't know were to write a blog post entitled, "Thoughts on Matthew Williams," I might be inclined to think rude thoughts about the stranger whose pontificating at my expense could be completely misinformed. But, alas, when you were a Christian music superstar in the late 90s who announces she is gay to the Christian media, well... I imagine there will be many folks posting their thoughts to blogs. I just hope to bring an infusion of grace to this particular conversation.
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Long time, no post! All with good reason. I've been friggin' busy. But here we go, into a whole new adventure. I recently launched The Second Guess. This is a collaborative discussion forum thing (yes, that's the best way I can describe it right now) with a goal of working toward reconciliation between the church and the gay community. I wrote about my desire to do this a lot last year.
Since recognizing that I was gay in Christian middle & high school I grew up in, I always suspected - deep down - that one day I would be using my experiences to help others in a similar situation. There were a lot of emotional, spiritual, and even physical hurdles to navigate before arriving at this first blog post on "The Second Guess," but I do believe that this is the culmination of those suspicions from over a decade ago.
If you've had the chance to poke around the website, you should have some sense of what I'm setting out to do with "The Second Guess." And, naturally, you may have some suspicions of your own. I've found that people are often skeptical about who I am and why I want to work toward reconciliation between the church & gay people. Christians wonder whether I intend to push an "affirming" perspective on them or ask that they perform same-sex weddings. LGBT people ask whether I expect them to change their orientation or give up their fight for marriage equality. It seems everyone has a list of standards that one must meet before any real relationship might begin to take root, or even a real conversation can happen.
The truth is, if I were to lay out my personal convictions in black & white without any context, people from all across the spectrum would find something to disagree with. The problem is that we too often assume that if we don't agree, then we simply can't communicate, relate, do life together, or benefit from one another's perspectives. Not a lot of people would come out and say that - but it's pretty evident in how we pick sides, draw lines, and avoid folks with whom we disagree.
Well, I think we can - and should - communicate with, relate to, do life with, and benefit from the perspective of people who are very different from us. I believe the culture war between the church and gay people is very damaging to our hearts, minds, and souls. And I've started "The Second Guess" because I want to make a difference in the way we relate to one another.
There will be many people who just won't get it, or care about it, or will think it's a waste of time. For instance, if you don't personally care about...then you probably won't find much of value in this blog, on the website, or at Second Guess events. But I've come across people along the way who do care about those things, as do I, and so those are the people I want to connect with. And at this point, especially those who live in San Diego, since that's where my life is.
- matters of faith & living out the way of Jesus,
- LGBT issues,
- culture clashes in society,
- and seeking unity & reconciliation between estranged parties,
You can have your suspicions about me; that's OK. I get it. I tend to not trust where people are coming from either, until I get to know them. But that's what I will be doing as "The Second Guess" unfolds - letting myself be known. I believe with all my heart that what I'm doing is right & good & true, but I want to let you learn that for yourself. So I plan to open up my life here and in person as much as I can. I want to build relationships with other gay people, and with other Christians. I hope to tell, show, live my story in such a way as to help you see that we don't have to fight each other. We don't have to avoid each other. We don't have to hate or even dislike each other.
Reconciliation is hard, slow, and painful. But it creates something beautiful in the end. I'm after that. I think God is after that. And I hope you'll consider being after that, too.